COVID19 was a big part of my 2020. I’ve documented the death of my dad and uncle due to the virus. Both ended up in the hospital and rehab settings due to falls. That was pre-vaccines.
Over the past two years, I’ve done all that I can to protect not only my immunocompromised self, but also my mother who lives with COPD. I’ve limited my social interactions, became vigilant with mask wearing, and refused to let anyone near my mother who wasn’t vaccinated or masked. For the most part, people respected this request.
Then my mom fell. Over the past 8 weeks, she has worked hard to be able to come back home. The week before she was scheduled to be discharged, there was a COVID outbreak on her rehab floor. I found out while sitting with her coughing all over me (thinking it was her COPD) when they entered to swab her. She tested negative for 3 days, and on the day I was to take her home, she tested positive.
I know my mom is vaccinated and boosted, but her comorbidity of COPD and chronic sinusitis makes it difficult for her to breathe. We opted to keep her in the COVID skilled nursing portion of the nursing home. She isn’t happy, but I felt it was best for her to have 24 hour nursing. If I brought her home, home health may not come because of her positive status. She is where she needs to be right now, even if it is the place where she was infected.
At the end of the day, my heart aches. The nursing team said I can come to visit, but being immunocompromised, it’s not a good idea. I’ve tested negative 3x but am sick as a dog. The week prior to her COVID diagnosis, mom had bacterial pneumonia. I was exposed to that, too and feel that might be what I am dealing with or a serious sinus infection. Regardless, I’m down for the count with body aches, coughing, fever, headache, and awful sinus pressure.
As I scroll through social media, I see people traveling all around the US and Europe. I’m so jealous. They travel and do well. I go out to dinner twice and visit my mom in a nursing home, and I am sick as a dog. Someday, COVID will be a long lost memory, right? Until then, please send positive vibes, prayers, and healing thoughts our way. I refuse to sink into the worry that I feel having a second parent end up COVID positive, but I am definitely on the edge.