I’m angry

I am very angry and have been for a very long time. I’m angry that in my dogs final days I spent more than 75% of the time sitting in the car waiting for her instead of being able to hold and comfort her due to COVId-19. I’m grateful I was able to hold her […]

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April showers…..

I was determined to write about something that didn’t have to do with depression. I couldn’t do it. I lost so much in 2020, that somedays it feels unimaginable that I will be able to pull myself out. Ironically, social media has “memories” that pop up on your feed that highlight things that happened in […]

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How can I assist you?

My health has been a roller coaster lately. This past week my disease is basically out of control. I had to break out my cane because walking and balance were an issue. I woke up Friday morning feeling exhausted, but I got out of bed and forced myself to drive to work. I lasted 1.5 […]

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22 reasons why…

Today was a tough day. It was a typical work day with all the typical hassles that occur, but I felt like I counted down each and every moment until 2:25 pm. You see at 2:25 pm, I was scheduled for my first COVID-19 vaccine. My journey to this moment has been painful for many […]

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Overwhelmed…

I lost my dad after a battle with COVID-19 on November 10. Twenty-two days later, my Uncle also passed after being diagnosed with COVID a day earlier. Both were senior citizens. Both had pre-existing conditions. Neither one of them deserved to die the way that they did. Alone without the comfort of loved ones by […]

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please

My 84 year-old father has Parkinson’s and degenerative arthritis in addition to heart disease, diabetes, and other medical issues. He is a fall risk and fell quite a bit. I was working with my parents on getting help, but could only do so much without their permission. They are fiercely independent. Over the summer, I […]

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LAME JOINTS and social expectations….

Life has been stressful. I’m dealing with not only my job (online), flares, and a serious issue with my elderly parents. Stress is intense and it is taking a toll on me physically and emotionally. It’s always a fine balance in these situations. Trying to self-care while caring for others. Trying to stay focused on […]

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Warning: Capacity depleted…

We all have those “Aha” moments. The moment when you learn about something that gives you clarity that you may or may not have known you were seeking. I had this kind of moment tonight and it is a moment that I truly needed. Let me explain, I’m miserable. Starting a virtual school year after […]

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Crash…

Since the Coronavirus Quarantine, my body has been on a high. I’ve been feeling good. Working from home has greatly improved my joint pain. It’s something my rheumatologist has been asking me to do for a while….work less. Although, I’m not working less, per se, I am working with my legs up, less walking, and […]

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Hold the lime…

So if you are immunocompromised like me, the presence of the Novel Coronavirus (COVID-19) has you feeling uneasy. Between the political jockeying, the stock markets dropping, and the news cycles spreading panic, it’s hard to know how much information to take to heart. I know I panic every flu season, so this added virus is […]

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