One step at a time…

It’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted a blog. There are 15 blogs in my drafts that I just couldn’t finish. I feel like I lost my voice for a bit. I’ve lived in pain for over 20 years. This past year; however, I feel like my disease is out of control. Medication barely […]

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Dipping my toes back in…

I’ve been riding a low wave lately. I’m coming up on the year anniversary of losing my dad to COVID19. I continue to have feelings of anger, heartache, disbelief, and utter grief. Honestly, most days, I struggle to get out of bed. I took a huge chunk of 2021 off to work on myself. To […]

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April showers…..

I was determined to write about something that didn’t have to do with depression. I couldn’t do it. I lost so much in 2020, that somedays it feels unimaginable that I will be able to pull myself out. Ironically, social media has “memories” that pop up on your feed that highlight things that happened in […]

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How can I assist you?

My health has been a roller coaster lately. This past week my disease is basically out of control. I had to break out my cane because walking and balance were an issue. I woke up Friday morning feeling exhausted, but I got out of bed and forced myself to drive to work. I lasted 1.5 […]

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Certainly uncertain…

A year ago the world shut down. I remember sitting in my little office with two students and my high school intern. I was getting annoyed because the intern kept checking her phone. Suddenly she looks up and says, “My mom said we are closed for two weeks!” You can image the reaction of the […]

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Grace-less

People keep telling me over and over that I need to give myself some grace to deal with my illness, to deal with my grief, to deal with the pandemic, etc. I listen and then immediately ask myself, “What does that mean?” So I looked it up: According to Mashable: Give yourself grace is permission to […]

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Overwhelmed…

I lost my dad after a battle with COVID-19 on November 10. Twenty-two days later, my Uncle also passed after being diagnosed with COVID a day earlier. Both were senior citizens. Both had pre-existing conditions. Neither one of them deserved to die the way that they did. Alone without the comfort of loved ones by […]

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Wish me luck…

Living with chronic illness is tough. Living with chronic illness when your elderly parents are struggling medically is also tough. Toss in a pandemic and the stress and anxiety are at an all time high. Then my dad fell and broke his hip and ended up in a rehab hospital. I was lucky enough to […]

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LAME JOINTS and social expectations….

Life has been stressful. I’m dealing with not only my job (online), flares, and a serious issue with my elderly parents. Stress is intense and it is taking a toll on me physically and emotionally. It’s always a fine balance in these situations. Trying to self-care while caring for others. Trying to stay focused on […]

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Warning: Capacity depleted…

We all have those “Aha” moments. The moment when you learn about something that gives you clarity that you may or may not have known you were seeking. I had this kind of moment tonight and it is a moment that I truly needed. Let me explain, I’m miserable. Starting a virtual school year after […]

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